Life was much easier when you're here.. :|

16th

i could just wish that..

you're here with me..next to me..

i'll keep silence..

and just..

hold your hand..

tight..

it's 16th..

and..still i can't touch you..

I'm with you..even you're thousand miles away..
I'm with you..even you can't see me..

We're not separated dear..
We just can't touch each other..
We're not separated dear..
This just a short distance,,for our long live love..

In every rain i smell..
In every breathe i take..
I could smell you always..
I can feel you always..

In every dream i have..
In every day i spent..
I know i'm walking the path..
To something we call 'our future'..

We're not separated dear..
We just can't touch each other..
We're not separated dear..
This just a short distance,,for our long live love..

And every night before you sleep..
Just close your eyes and think of me..
Take your breathe and smile for me..
And I will send you thousands kisses and hugs..
To warm you to your deepest dream..

Someday,
we will walking on the sand..
we will playing all around..
we will flying on our own...

Here's my hand..Don't Let me Fall

Don't Let Me Fall
by: Lenka

**) Underneath the moon, Underneath the stars
Here's a little heart for you
Up above the world, Up above it all
Here's a hand to hold on to

But if I should break, If I should fall away
What am I to do?
I need someone to take, A little of the weight
Or I'll fall through

*) You're just the one, That I've been waiting for
I'll give you, All that I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

Take a little time, Walk a little line
Got the balance right
Give a little love, Gimme just enough
So that I can hang on tight

We will be alright, I'll be by your side

I wont let you down

But I gotta know, No matter how things go
That you will be alright

*), **)

Your just the one That I've been waiting for
I'll give you, All that I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

You'll be the one
That I'll love forever more
I'll be here holding you
High above it all
But don't let me fall

the one

I wanna be the one..
That you see before you sleep..
That you see first when you open your eyes in the morning..
I wanna be the one..
that always make you smile..
Brighten up your day..
I wanna be the one..

Awfully different without you

Don't Get around Much Anymore

Missed the Saturday dance
Heard they crowded the floor
Couldn't bear it without you
Don't get around much anymore
Thought I'd visit the club
Got as far as the door
They'd have asked me about you
Don't get around much anymore
Darling, I guess my mind's more at ease
But nevertheless, why stir up memories
Been invited on dates
Might have gone but what for?
Awfully different without you
Don't get around much anymore

Till There Was You

Till There Was You
by The Beatles

Here were bells on the hill
But I never heard them ringing,
No, I never heard them at all
Till there was you.

There were birds in the sky
But I never saw them winging
No, I never saw them at all
Till there was you.

And there was music,
And there were wonderful roses,
They tell me,
In sweet fragrant meadows of dawn, and dew.

There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No, I never heard it at all
Till there was you!

those pair of hands...
how can i miss them so much...

dear, space...

by the time we're not standing side by side...
i know that what i feel is something strong and real...
how I can smell you when you're not around..
how I can feel you when you're not by my side...

by the time we're not standing side by side...
I know this feeling is so great..
irreplaceable...
and,, so precious...

even tough you're not here with me..
somehow i always sure...
that you're always there, for me...
one thing you should know...
i wanna be that one too...
The one that will be always be there for you,,
even tough i'm not there, right beside you...

i Love you..
yes..
this is what i have to tell you..
i LOVE you..

Superhuman
Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson

Weak
I had been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I could barely speak?
Barely eat, on my knees

But that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see through the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love

I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

Superhuman
I feel so superhuman
Superhuman
I feel so superhuman
Superhuman

Strong
Since I been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I had it all along
I can see tomorrow

Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see
How love can set me free

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love

I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

Superhuman
I feel so superhuman
Superhuman
I feel so superhuman

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going gone away
My only weakness is you, only reason is you
Every minute with you I feel like I can do anything
Going, going I'm gone away! Love!

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love

I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

Superhuman
Superhuman

How should i say..
But i want you to be here..

My BioRhthms.. 19 March 2009

Huaaaa....
I'm Physically, Emotionally, and *sigh* Intelectually drop..
Maybe that's why i'm feeling so not into the world..

how can you reach me?

Just close your eyes,,
and breathe deeply..
Just lose your eyes,,
and think of me..
And you should know..
I'll be there for you..

Just be yourself...
And fight for what we have...
Because we're living for our future...
And i Know,,
You'll be with me...
Here..Next to me...
We have so much plan for our future..
Now we're fighting for all this dream..

Oh, i Miss You..

have i ever?

I've never sure, have i ever been in love or not..
all that i know that i'm feeling something great..something beautiful..something powerful..
Never know what it is...
but for me..
This is Love...

I'm so Sorry...

3rd 16th

i thought i was living in the dream..

or have the day dreaming..

but then i realized..

I was living in the reality..

with all the dreams, living..

i have nothing to say..

just thanking God for sending you..

and thanking you for living all of my dreams..

..you, it's you..

You Make My World So Colourful
by: Daniel Sahuleka


Morning sunshine in our room
Now that room is back in tune
Autumn start this day with a smile
And laugh at my beautiful love one
Who’s lying besides me

You so far away in your sleep
Who can tell what dream you may dream
You dont know that I was drawing
With my finger on your sweet young face
Vague as a meaning words

[*]
You make my world so colorful
I never had it so good
My love I thank you for all the love
You gave to me

Like a summer breeze so soft
Like a rose you bring me near
And I kiss your lips so sweet
Soft like the rain and gentle as
The morning dew in may

Though they said that I was wrong
But thank god my will so strong
I got you in the palm of my hand
Everyday they tried to put me on
But I laugh at those who tried to hurt our love

@ Pure

We start from here..
and we keep on walking..
we're moving forward..
and we're not in hurry..

the doctor said

What my doctor said:

take care of your gastrich.. ("_)

You should eat (can be medicine):
Spinach, brocoli, carrot, mushroom, Fishes, peanut, bean, soya bean, tofu, bean cake, wheat flour, blueberry, olive oil, sardine, snail, pineapple, mango, banana, lime, and citroen.
>> luckily..i like them..for carrot...i love RAW carrot..

You may eat this, but they are unnecesarry for your body (for food only):
Tuna, egg, sesame, ercis & capri, corn, wheat bread, onion, cucumber, taro, grape, melon, pear, kiwi, strawberry, guava, chicken, ostrich, turkey, bird)
>>hhh... i like them,,but they are not necesarry for my body??i don't care.. eating is one of my hobby... :)

You should not eat (can be poison):
Beef, lamb, duck, rabbit, lobster, octopus, crab, prawn, squid, butter, cow milk, cheese, pickles, tomato, potato, orange, coconut, honey dew melon, papaya, soda water.
>>HAH?? a lot of things that i like i couldn't eat??!! Hmm... Doctor.. God has created them all, to make human survive..so.. i hate you doc... hehehe...
hmm..i won't stop eat them..but,, i will try to control my self...
(T_T)

Let's go for the next trip!!

let's go to Papua...
okay..
find airpot...
hmm...
BIAK!!

*dialing Garuda's phone number*
tuut..tuut..tuut..
hallo, flight to Papua..
bla..bla..bla..
Okay...

hmm...
Map..
Papua...
Big Island..
Biak,,biak,,biak,,
"where is Biak"
oh my god!!
BIAK!! I found it!!
It's..It's..It's..
It's on a SMALL island of Papua..

resolution?? not really..just call it: DREAM!!

it's already new year... continue the tradition...
i have made a resolution..actually it isn't a resolution..it's a wish list i've posted two years a go at my old blog (http://kodokijo2004.blogdrive.com/)..
here they are...

* graduate
* get a job
! make a good research
! build an organization
! lead organization
! learn to cook foreign food
+ Donate a month’s salary to charity
* build my own clothing line
+ learn new language
! watch indonesia’s soccer team match lively
! upload me n cicik video on youtube
* dance under the stars on the seashore
+ watch sunset at lombok
* go to the Bangka Belitung with my besties
+ get a kiss in front of the sunset
* marry before 24
+ have a romantic dinner on the rooftop (could we count sky dining at plasa semanggi as rooftop,,or Pure resturant!!)
* backpacking around Indonesia
* get kissed in paris (haha)
+ make 100 stars for the one that i love (i made 112 ya hon??)
* watch rossi racing lively
* publish my own book
* have a garden party in my wedding day
* send mom and dad to their second honeymoon ;)
* singing in my wedding day
* backpacking to the dream countries
* live with my husband in our own house
* watch Yankee’s match lively
* have two children
* Climb a mountain alone!
* Visit every continent
* Do something you’ll be proud about to tell your children about
* Surprise someone by telling them how you feel
* Start a trip without any idea of the destination
+Sleep under the stars
+ Love as though you’ve never been hurt

that's all..
i already added few items.. for the wish i've done... i put (!) this mark..
for the wish i've done and i want it still.. i put (+) this mark..

haaaa..still long list to reach...
even though some of them are impossible..i still put them on my list..
because..that's what we call as DREAM..

I'm proud of him..

Dont worry...
You will always make me warm...
Even when you're 15 hours away from me...
This is it..
This is Love..

we can do if we believe......

we can do if we believe......

We Can..
Because..
We Believe...

feed the children

please tell me..
what does the letter mean??
the one that you wrote at the end of the book..

"feed our children.."

Pero no tengo ni idea sobre lo que debo hacer?

I sonrisa cada vez que quiero.
Me pongo mi máscara cada vez que necesito.
La gente dice que soy una chica fuerte.
Puedo hacer lo que quiera.
La gente dice que soy un duro.
Me levante de la tierra en mis propias manos.

Tengo un alto orgullo,
No voy a dejar que nadie me vea llorar.
Tengo un alto orgullo,
No voy a mostrar mis sentimientos a otros.

Soy una chica dura.
Sigo dentro de mis sentimientos.
Tengo un alto orgullo,
No voy a mostrar mis sentimientos a nadie, especialmente a usted ..
Yo solía ser.

Pero ..
No podía soportarlo ..
He presentado mi orgullo ..
querido, me puedes ver sonriendo ..
pero lo más profundo de mi corazón ..
Rompí ..
roto en pedazos ..

Miel,
Te amo ..
No quiero perder a usted ..
Pero no tengo ni idea sobre lo que debo hacer?

hujan..

Hujan begitu deras..
seperti hatiku..
Yang terus menangis..

I can fall in love every day

On the night Like This
by: Mocca

On the night like this
There's so many things I want to tell you
On the night like this
There's so many things I want to show you
Cause when you're around
I feel safe and warm
When you are around
I can fall in love every day
In the case like this
There are a thousand good reasons
I want you to stay

grow old with you

GROW OLD WITH YOU

Adam Sandler

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

All I wanna do is grow old with you.

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches

build you a fire if the furnace breaks

Oh it could be so nice, growin old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you, give you my coat when you are cold.

Need you, feed you, I'll even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in the kitchen sink

Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.

Oh I could be the man to grow old with you.

I wanna grow old with you.

No voy a llorar

Qué debo hacer?
Sólo quiero que usted permanezca.
Estoy bien, lo prometo.
Voy a dejar de jugar mi herida.
Me detendré bitting mis uñas.
Pero, ¿te quedas?

Qué debo hacer, cariño?
Quiero que te quedes.
pero yo no sería capaz de sostener.
te quiero.
más de lo que pueda imaginar.

15 hours away

don't worry..

he will be just 15 hours away..

falling..freely..

i thought..
i have prepared it well..
i thought..
i will be strong as i used to be..
i thought..
i could lie myself again..
i thought..
i could say' it's nothing'..
i thought..
i could say 'everthing's alright'..
i thought..
it will be easy..
i thought..
i had a good thoughts..
but i know..
my thoughts were totally wrong..

i thought..
i'm ready..
but..
i'm falling..
free falling..